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FiNaL wEeK of TP~~

2009-05-11T10:50:00.003+08:00

salam...

its been a while nda beupdate my blog.. Buziness strike!! haha.. TP tings really makes my life unorganized.. mana lagi masa wit my bestfren n bf.. huh... really hectic! tapi ada yg nda pndai kn paham jua... hmm... dun expect everyone can give most of their time for 1 person only.. Its life.. we shud have life with peopleS... not 1 people only....

This is d final week of TP.. lots of tings to do actually walaupun kn abis TP.. apa lagi klau nda sesi MERAIT buku~ huhu.. im sure im gonna miss TP tings especially memarahi my kids, teriak2.. abis suara... haha.. aku jua yg mental~

Now instead of merait buku murid, blogging tah ku plg.... haha.. kes boring n malas start buat kaja ni bnrnya... plus m not feeling well jua masa ni.. demam daaaaa..........final week ani brutah ku kn dmam... kes nda puas hati jua tu.. hopefully ok la sal i promised my kids to give them a party dis thurs...

My Love life? hmm.. lets jus say up & down.. but so far its getting better n better.. n hopefully our relationship will be full of love in the future.. im just hoping that he would understand my work n my life.. i know deep inside him he loves me n deep inside my heart i love him.. its just d matter of understanding n trust...

i guess dats it for now... till next tym..

-t!k@-
me, me & only me..

hMmMm.. LyFe iS sO cOmPLiCaTeD..

2009-04-20T13:33:00.002+08:00

Salam...
Its been awhile nda update my blog ani... huhu... from JANUARY!!!!!!!!! haha.. been busy all this while with TP and other things.. tapi mostlynya TP la... ahaha.. Most of my time doing my TP preparation.. kn hang ot wif my gurls pun jarg2 dah masa ni.. last tym ja masa cuti skulah atu pun nda semua dpat so yg dpat saja ler...

My personal lyfe? hmm.. its up and down.. biasalh namanya relationship kn... huhu.. but i hope things goes well with me n my beyh.. altho im not sure the truth, but hey... my bestfren told me to give faith on it bcoz im d one who choose this road.. yeah... so... jus go with da flow.. it its ok.. hopefully... den me n my beyh will be okay eventho there are people who keep on coming to ruin it..

My kids? huhu.. yea.. a bit stressfull.. bnyak kn pengambng! at first memang la mental n stress tahap max! but den things going a bit easy for me.. sal aku ngamuk ari atu kali.. haha.. teacher Tika ngamuk d skulah~ eish... takut ler... huhu.. bukannya ngamuk abis.. jus bagi lecture my kids ja.. supaya durg merati n berakal ckit.. n 1 ting, haha.. aku pun surprise dat day... aku nyumpah my kids... uwaaaaaaaaa

y ku nyumpah? sal durg main sumpah2 dpan ku tym ku ngajar.. ku larang nda jua merati.. makin teruk plg durg main sumpah.. haha... cuba aku yg ikut2an jua nyumpah... naaaahhhhhhhhhh! padas yo~ diam selajur... hehe.. but den aku rasa len dikit lah..aku marah tahap max dah dat day... all my body rasanya shaking.. really pissed off! but i still do love them... afterall they are my kids.. huhu...

i think dats all for now.. kn ke ubd jap.. huhu.. till next tym...

-t!k@ 109-
me, me & only me..

Getting complicated!!

2009-01-20T17:41:00.004+08:00

salam..
life wothout complicted tings nda sahkn.. bukn tah namanya life tu kalau nada masalah.. huh.. tings are getting complicated ryte now.. n im jus tired n dunno wat to do actually.. im hoping i cud find the hole for me to escape out of dis mess!! but d mess itself dun wanna let me go! how?

Tings wit Z is getting complicted actually.. cudnt trust him n d gurl.. one of them is a liar but which 1? am i dat blind to see dis? *sigh* Z says all d gurl said is crap n shudnt let my self trust her n involve in dis ting.. canata jua.. mun aku yg kna msg n call.. it makes me sick! Z says he will settle dis tings wit d gurl n family n all n he keeps on say sorry causing all dis mess..

i jus wanna hear da truth.. dats all.. if he really wit dat gurl jus admit it.. afterall we jus frens eventho Z wan us to be special.. i jus cnt handle dis tings while my TP session coming in less than 2 weeks!! well, d last msg from dat gurl says dat she is over Z oredy n hop me n Z happy.. wat? i dun even know what she talks about..

hmm hope Z will settle dis mess.. coz i really dun need dis ting to bothering me while im bz wit my TP..

A? haha.. i dunno wat happen to him.. lately ku nda layan ia g.. jarg dah ku layan ia.. n maybe ia terasa.. wat da h**l... dun expect me to wait beside him until he has d courage to make a decision! cme on la.. u r a GUY.. u shud know wat u want n do something about it.. hmm.. i dun wanna be ur sparepart la.. if u really wants me, u shud do something bout it n dun expect me to wait for u n be a nice gf!

some1 call me up yesterday.. haha.. its been quite a long time ku nda dgr dri ia.. i was bz with my bby sya dat tym wen he call me up..n i was like bngang berabis sal its him! haha.. E.. we talk n talk cath tings up.. he did try being sarcstic lagi.. p im tired wit all of dat.. so aku bck off n start to talk other tings.. its a gud ting to do actually.. ia pun nda memnjngkn.. haha.. ptg tu ku ke 2tong meeting him.. since ku pun in a mess sa ni.. so i meet him n do some talk n watching dvds..

but i hv to get bck early around 4.30 since ia pun kn dgn kn unclenya goin sumwer.. he wantd me to stay plg.. but i refused.. haha.. u want me? come n get me! we did discuss bout wat we miss n do wrong in d past.. haha.. it was a nice talk n hang ot togethr.. 1 thing bother me, he keep asking who is he to me.. n i did ask him back.. wat he want to be.. but he refused to answer.. he jus want me to answer his qn.. n i say he is my fren.. know wat his reaction? owh.. a fren..

im a bit confuse actually.. he say he is not ready to hav a gf ryte now.. but he seems he wants more than a fren from me.. den i know i shud cnfront him n ask him wat he wants.. n he did say he is not ready to hav a gf.. den i say to him, its ok n let us be fren till the tyme come.. den we can discuss dis matter again.. haha.. n there he goes again srcstic n bla bla bla.. n at last he ask me to hav my rest.. huhu.. i win!

its all coming back to me now.. i dunno.. Z, A, E....i jus dun need guys in my lyfe if guys only makes my life misserable!!

Dis is a song from Once, aku mau.. E ask me to listen.. he say its for me.. haha.. funny...

Kau boleh acuhkan diriku
Dan anggap ku tak ada
Tapi takkan merubah perasaanku
Kepadamu

Kuyakin pasti suatu saat
Semua kan terjadi
Kau kan mencintaiku
Dan tak akan pernah melepasku

Aku mau mendampingi dirimu
Aku mau cintai kekuranganmu
Selalu bersedia bahagiakanmu
Apapun terjadi
Kujanjikan aku ada

Kau boleh jauhi diriku
Namun kupercaya
Kau kan mencintaiku
Dan tak akan pernah melepasku

Aku mau mendampingi dirimu
Aku mau cintai kekuranganmu
Selalu bersedia bahagiakanmu
Apapun terjadi
Kujanjikan aku ada

Aku mau mendampingi dirimu
Aku mau cintai kekuranganmu
Aku yang rela terluka
Untuk masa lalu

till next tym..
-t!k@-
mE, mE & oNLy mE!

Confused, scared & Lost~

2009-01-13T17:51:00.004+08:00

salam~
lama dah nda update.. lots of tings happen.. wanna keep them to myself actually.. but i cant hold them alone by my self.. huhu.. its hurting n killing me slowly~ uwaaaaaaaaaa.......... wer 2 start? haha.. as expected, wen u lost sum1 u really care, den u realise how stupid u r.. but its too late.. give me lots of sweet msgs, no use lagi... i hav ENUF! wen u hav sum1 who really care for u n loves u, try to appreciate them.. dun eva lost them jus bcoz of small tings..

At last... exam results OUT! huhu.. sesungguhnya menunggu result ani sungguh mendera perasaan n menyakitkn mcm urg kn berank saja........ actually, ku nda expect dis result.. ku expect i got lower than dis.. since tym exam aku bnr2 down! haha... but... alhamdulilah, syukur... my grades makes me smile... i got overall B! huhu... tak disangka2...

Kn TP lagi nie.... hav to prepare tings untk TP soon.. :S gud luck guys.... bath tani bz nie nnti.. huhu.. share2 saja apa yg dpat d share untk TP nnti k.. nda g sabr2 kn teriak2 nie.. bowhhh... haha.. no screaming tika~~ jus use psychology approaches.. wahaha.. iye la tue.. mun nda tahan2 ia jua tu krg beteriak..................

Hopfully our TP session goes well n got good grades.... nda g sabr kn graduate wa bnrnya~~~~

My other lyfe? cudnt talk much bout it ryte now.. complicated.. wen u tot u found sum1 90% perfect for u, tink back... 'Nada urg yg sempurna kecuali yg SATU'.. dlm relationship pun sama.. If we tink dat d relationship is perfect, tink back... there must be sumting wrong within.. wen u found sum1 u r happy with all the tym, tink back dat the hapiness will be taken away from u sooner.. so enjoy d moment while u still can.. coz the truth HURTS....

wat its gonna be?
waiting~
-t!k@-
mE, mE & oNLy mE!

Aku sakit - wali band

2009-01-03T23:34:00.003+08:00

dis song dja yang introduce actually.. its a nice one.. a bit sad.. ngam lah ngan my story wit d two guys..

Aku sakit Bila menatap matamu
Sadarku Bahwa engkau bukan milikku
Aku sakit Bila ku mengagumimu
Sadarku Kau tak pernah mengagumiku

Bangunkan Aku dari tidur panjangku
Sadarkan Aku dari mimpi tentangmu
Kusalah Bila ku berharap padamu
Salahku Paksa kau tuk mengagumiku

Kau tak tahu Perasaanku
Dan ku tak mau Kau tahu

Aku sakit Jika kau tahu hatiku
Karena Diriku tak berarti bagimu
Aku sakit Bilakah kau sembuhkan aku
Tak mungkin Tak mungkin sungguh tidak mungkin

Bangunkan Aku dari tidur panjangku
Sadarkan Aku dari mimpi tentangmu
Kusalah Bila ku berharap padamu
Salahku Paksa kau tuk mengagumiku

Kau tak tahu Perasaanku
Dan ku tak mau Kau tahu

Bangunkan Aku dari tidur panjangku
Sadarkan Aku dari mimpi tentangmu
Kusalah Bila ku berharap padamu

Kau tak tahu Perasaanku
Dan ku tak mau Kau tahu
Aku Sakit

eNDiNg & sTarTiNg~~

2009-01-01T20:57:00.015+08:00

At empire:

At pntai Seri kenangan:

Salam...
Its d first day of 2009!! huhu.. no more 2008 then... hmm.. so much painful in 2008 which i want to get rid off.. so be it.. wats for the end of 2008? at first me n my gurls, dja & dzah planning out last nyte.. tpi last minute dzah nda jadi.. so tinggal me n dja saja.. having sushi for our dinner with diana n sita d excapade.. d mana lagi kan... haha.. n hang around sana till 10.30pm..

after sushi, me n dja go to jp sal nada kn d tuju.. haha.. so we just go to pntai jerudong n park there waiting for the countdown.. siok jua la... ramai urg lepak sana.. smpai traffic jem awal atu.. n finally its 12!! n its 2009 already!!!!!!! aiya....

funnynya bout last nyte is, nearly all my fren tym sekolah jerudong yg rapat dgn aku mentext aku n tanya aku dmana.. so since aku djerudong, y not gather durg semua.. haha.. at first semua agree.. but den, c cummie last minute ada hal, n c dillah stuck d empire.. so nda jadi la... i just meeting asril n sepol saja n hang out jap.. its fun! mcm dulu2 maseh.. even kmi rista sal sekolah rendah dulu tym main raja n permaisuri!! haha... still fresh in our mind tho...

back home around 2 am n i was so tired.. but den again, mcm nda pndai kn nyuruh aku happy saja, ada kaling majal kurg ajar menipun n msg.. wateva it is, i forgive u n hope u happy! sangal ku dah laki2 mcm ko a! huhu.. at last pndai jua ko minta maaf smapi kn sujud rah ku. "Telajak perahu dpat d undur, telajak kata? sendiri ko sna atu!! tink before u open ur damn mouth!!

Today, andg planning kn picnic ngan dja n dzah along with some of frens n family deja.. but unfortunately, family dja n our frens nda jadi.. so tgal kmi 3 ja.. dzah, dja n me!! huhu.. tym msn, ada tia c andy text.. so y not ku suruh ia dtg.. haha.. actually im d one yg tepksa ambil ia d barik sal kritanya accident! huh! kureng asam... n aku sasat d 2tong kem! :s uwaaaaaa!! well afterall, we had fun togethr.. d 4 of us.. but den, andy tpksa balik awal ckit sal kna work call.. huhu.. anyway we had a gud laugh tho..

we stay at pantai sri kenangn till 3 plus and we head to pntai empire.. membuang panatz n limpang2 atas batu smbil liat sunset.. wat a day... but den.. its fun!!

so tireeedddd.... kn smbung soping n hang out till midnyte actually.. tpi nda jadi sal sorg2 lalah.. so esok bru smbung.. haha..

Till next post...

i miss u.. but.. i cant.. so sad..

-t!k@-

LiFe...hMmM..

2008-12-26T16:51:00.003+08:00

Salam... its been a while nda update my blog.. lots of thing came up so nda g ter update my blog.. what to say since my last post? hmmm... let me see... huhu... first ting first.. my exam abis dah.. finally.. but lets just see d result nnti.. nda confident!!! :s sepnjangh cuti, im bored to death! noting much to do.. just stay at home, bby sitting and adala jua out wit my gurls memanatz.. haha.. :p

At last the 'ting' is clear now.. i do love him, n he do love me.. but we cnt be togethr.. its funny.. when u think u found someone who really loves n cares u, he is just not available.. what to do? hmmm... just let him go... i shud hate him, mad at him n throw him away.. but i cant.. so stupid of me! dats wat love makes u!

anyway... both of us could owez be friends eventho we know dat we want more than dat.. i'm just a lady next door.. u r d guy.. u shud know wat to do... if u want me, get me.. if not, hope u r happy wit ur gf... u shud know how to make ur own decision by this age.. i cnt believe ada g lelaki yg nda pndai buat keputusan! wat eva reason pun, jus go... im used to this sudah..

done with love issue! im starting to enjoying myself tho.. not tinking of relationship coz it makes me scik.. haha.. but its true.. now hav lots of frens, but only frens, fling around n jus dat.. its not going to be easy dis tyme.. honestly, im fade up of serious relationship wit guys.. tend to go for no comitment relationship.. huhu.. its fun.. but.... u can tink..

bit streesful ryte now.. suppose to be going to the beach.. tpi nda jadi! huh... spoil my mood... yesterday going out wit sum1 yg sudh lama nda jumpa.. huhu.. it was fun n m looking forward to another outing g wit him.. kinda miss d old him tho.. but i cant hav him like the old days.. too bad for us.. haha.. talking bout old fren, hmm.. i dunno wat happen to asril nyway.. miss dat guy jua....

Actually m in dilemma.. still balum dpat pkir clear.. gpun takut nda mencukupi syarat.. haha.. but, i may jus try to apply.. who knows dpat.. tpi i hav to train myself.. heavy training! need to ask andy lagi tue... ish! dilemma sal apa naaaahhhh? haha... gonna wait for the result jua.. huh.. sesungguhnya menunggu result dis semster tah yg paling ku takut!!

oh yes! another update... huhu.. congrats to my bestfren, ziah... dun rush.. its too early.. n im happy for u.. at least u hav found ur love now.. hehe..

tink dats all for my updates... next tym g...

i'm not lucky in love relationship.. is there any chnce for me to feel the hapiness? all i can do ryte now is, wait.. coz im tired of searching...

camelia, kekasih gelapku, tak selamanya selingkuh itu indah... u name it!!

me, me & only me
-t!k@-

eXpEcT tHe UNEXPECTED..

2008-12-05T00:09:00.002+08:00

salam...
huh.. tinggal 1 paper ja lagi.. tpi cam abis exam sudh.. huhu.. oh who cares.. asal nda sakit kepala n nda stress mikirkn benda yg membuang masa..wahaha... opppsss! im sure i'll be over wit my problem soon.. hopefully everyting goes well n m sure will not regret of wat eva happen..

so far my exam was okay.. except for the 2 art papers.. huhu.. unexpected tings came up dat surely ruining my mood n my study pace.. dats hoe LOVE effect ur other tings in ur lyfe.. really HATE dat!

having my sushi nyte wit deja on wednsday.. smbil2 membersihkn mata n pikiran ku yg beserabut.. lots of updates between me n deja n ofcoz our dear org utan yg maseh beutang cerita rah kami! huhu.. darl!!! mysh u so muchhhhhh!! muaaahhhzzzzzz!

jus finish my PJ exam tadi.. ok la jua d questions.. hopefully my grade will be okay too.. hehe.. after exam tdi bby nonoi bawa lunch so 3 of us heading to gdg lunch rah foodcourt mall.. Pnyalah ramai urg sana!!! its fullhouse! cuti tah jua bnr... n mostly UBDianz pun bnyak yg last paper 2day.. so panuhla gdg tue..

oh yes! i just get my hair cut tadi.. d result? lawa... nti ku post.. hehe.. tpi yg penting sekali, urg yg cuci my hair tadi... wa~~~ so cute~~~~ TTR ku tarus... mr agogo guy... wahaha... gatal~~~
bila jua nda kn... :P

after ICT paper, i'll be freeeeeee..... NOT all d tym.. hehe.. baby sit lagie~~ well, its fun.. liat my bby sya bsar dh masa ni.. huhu.. i guess i'll make sure m bzy to avoid other tings yg nda deserve my attention!! however, ive 2 coming dates olredy! :s haiya....

i guess, me n him will be over eventho balum g conform.. jus tired of being cheated! i may be stupid to fall in love.. but im not dat stupid to be fool again.. so jus wait n see the unexpected ting dat will come to u!!

-T!K@-

StiCk wiT U oR nOt StiCk wiT U?

2008-11-30T22:21:00.004+08:00

salam...
balum ada mood kn belajar actually.. eventho i know my exam bejurut afta dis n all of them pagi... huhu.. need to hav my head straight after dis.. 4cus!!!!! hehe... lama dh nda dgr dat word.. hope mr focus happy wit his life dah masa ni.. haha.. thnx anyway.. hmm.. bru liat score first half tadi.. MU vs MC.. 1-0 bru... ofcoz la MU yg 1 kn... hehe... go MU!!

dri pgi tadi baby sit my bby sya, sal atu jua nda tblajar coz melayan bby sya sja.. huhu.. dh jadi auntie dahhhh... after exam ni pun i hav to cek my schedule wit my sis n my mum punya schedule.. takut teclash nada urg jaga baby sya.. huhu.. baby sitter! kinda fun actually... n she is soooooo cute wen she make d face.. grow up like ur auntie k... hehehe.. :p

tdi ke sport complex jap liat chipzmore main bola.. haha.. so cute~~~ ooppppssssssss! sorrryyyy.... hehe... well, bru tah nda bz... tu pun sekajap ja... after ia abis main, we hav a short talk den he has to head back.. sal keraja.. haha.. y m not surprise? coz tot so... yea.. we'll see till wen we can stnd n till wen we can survive.. funny ting is, so far he can survive eventho he only cntct me less than 5 times a day!

if he ask me, dun hav the answer ryte now.. nda tau smpai bila tahap kesbaran ku ani tahan.. huhu.. m not goin to tink much on dis nymore.. cos i hav a life.. n i know i hav people who care n love me.. :) however, i do really love chipsmore.. huh.. its hard wen u really fall in love wit d person.. kn marah pun nda dpat, sal syg bnr.. huhu.. i hate dis feeling!!!

as he says, jus go wit d flow.. if smpai our flow goin to the same destination, den we'll be okay.. but if not... its fate... jus dunno how many times lagi i hav to go thru d uneasy feeling.. since m goin wit d flow wit my 'hubby' jua masa nie... huhu.. is it my fault? dunno.. dun put d blame on me alone..

We dun hav to find LOVE, let LOVE find us
Dats y it's called 'Falling in LOVE'
B'coz we don't force ourself to fall, we juz fall...

Thannx 2 cujah 4 d recipeee... :)
-T!k@-

attached or not attached? hmm..

2008-11-27T09:41:00.000+08:00

hmmmm..... 2day is my exam actually.. later at 2... n sumting new sal exam!!! NO READING TIME!!!! huhu.. since wen? but heck, we all jus read anyway... huhu... my sejarah papers was not bad... sangal menulis ja n tmbh g roomnya freezing cold! i cnt feel my fingers at 1 tyme actually.. huhu.. kn ptah ja g nda! well as sum1 says, pkai baju panas... huhu.. baju tuangkn air panas! lagitia KARAU! :p

i'm done wit my revision actually dats y blogging... huhu.. sal dun want to keep dis burden to my self.. i know sum1 will read dis.. huhu.. n WE know dat we havent updates n cntct each other lately coz of d exams.. so jus read my blog CUJAH.. hehe.. ;P nyway, gudluck on exams yah...

attched or not attached? sumting dat i might reconsider actually.. o is it jus another 'dugaan' 4 me? well yg pastinya, if he dun do sumting quickly, sumting WILL happen.. as i said, i'm tired olredy.. so yeah.. im not going to wait any longer... if U want me, U come n get me!! i might lose u in dis battle, coz i know u dun really dat care... i might full with tears, but... will not regret of losing U..

Why i say dat? coz i hav ENUF of guys yg pyah kn appreciate gurls wen they r in UR hands olredy.. i dun want to pressurise U, jus please understnd like i try to understnd U.. d rest all up to U.. are we up to dis relationship? or another halfway relationship? u pick, u choose n u decide...

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Enuf of sad stories!! huhu.. my best fren, andy, damam+batuk+ampus... ciannnyerrrrr.... get well soon lenks!! boring nada kn d nyaya... huhu.. my best buddy, sabri, oh well.. he is in jakarta ryte now.. hopefully he is fine there... mysh u so much!!!! muahz! hav a new 'fren' actually... his name? Ghani.. nda pyah fullname... haha... too much coincidence between us dat both me and him bangng wit all wat happen arround us in the past..

he used 2 be d 1 yg gantikn aku d sek rendh jerudong... i mean aku pindah keluar ia pindah masuk.. so nda teclash.. n we share the same frens d jerudong.. tym d mD, ia sama intake ngan aku... tpi kmi lngsung nda teclash dmana2 class, i mean nda pernh 1 class.. heh.. weird kn.. den tym ku masuk diploma, actually ia kn apply diploma jua dgn2 kawannya wich is shariol n amin, tapi nda jadi... huhu.. if ia masuk? u know wat happen... actually if ia masuk, kmi kenal each other... ceh~ scary....

n now bru kmi teclash.. tu pun dri tagged... haha.. wat a world... so much of coincidence... n he is a libra.. which is lahir bulan 9 jua... oh well.. now me n him are 'MARRIED'!! haha.. we wish dat we could be married officially.. but... haha.. who knows kn... mysh my husbnd!! bowh.... huhu.. yeah.. dats d truth plg... See.. dis is wat happen... If U, U know who U r... If U dun do sumting fast, dun blame me if im married to dis guy for real!!

its 10am! huhu.. kn flipbck notes dulu...

P/S: Cujah.... postkn recipe buttermilk chicken... my sis mau... huhu... TQ..

Tired of waiting 4 our relationship...
Dunno whether U R serious o not..
wateva happen after dis...
tink back of wat effort u have done, if there is any...

Anak Punai Anak Merbah,
Hinggap Di Tunggak Mencari Sarang,
Anak Sungai Lagikan Berubah,
Inikan Pula Hati Orang..

jus realise this song actually, Crush, Love the lyrics.. ;)

I hung up
The phone tonight
Something happened
For the first time
Deep inside
It was a rush
What a rush'
Cause the possibility
That you would ever
Feel the same way
About me
It's just too much
Just too much
Why do I keep running
From the truth
All I ever think
About is you
You got me hypnotized
So mesmerized
And I just got to know
Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this can go
Am I crazy
Or falling in love
Is it really
Just another crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way you do'
Cause I'm trying, trying to walk away
But I know this crush
Ain't goin' away
Goin' away
Has it ever crossed
Your mind
When were hangin'
Spending time girl
Are we just friends
Is there more
Is there more
See it's a chance
We've gotta take
Cause I believe
That we can
Make this into
Something
That will last
Last forever
Forever
Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing can go
Am I crazy
Or falling in love
Is it really just
Another crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way you do'
Cause I'm trying,trying to walk away
But I know this crush
Ain't goin' away
Goin' away
Why do I keep running
From the truth
All I ever think
About is you
You got me hypnotized
So mesmerized
And I just got to know
Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this can go
Am I crazy
Or falling in love
Is it really just
Another crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way you do'
Cause I'm trying, tryin to walk away
But I know this crush
Ain't goin' away
Goin' away
Goin' away

Its REALLY a bad timing for DIS!!

2008-11-23T00:58:00.000+08:00

Its been a while nda update my blog.. as usual, assignmentssssss!! now done all my assignment actually.. tgu exam dis coming monday saja lagi.. my first paper will be SEJARAH :s huhu.. dis monday ptg... why ptg?! nda working brain ku if ptg ani! ah well... who am i?

dunno y makin kn periksa, makin bnyak maslah.. its really not a gud time kn buatkn aku bepikir.. i had enuf tinking on my revision.. so please... jgn tmbhkn lagi... dunno wer our relationship goin actually... who am i to u? dunno who am i to u..

Now sedng2 revising actually... tapi ada msn text tadi while ku d luar bilik.. from him.. its jus about 1 minute.. why he couldn't wait for a few more minutes for me to reply? why he jus assumed dat im sleeping n tarus of9? dis is interesting lagi...... why he didnt answer my call sedngkn its jus 1 minute dri ia antr text n of9... huh... i'm tired... tired of being the only person who makes this relationship works!

what else does he want? what else can i do? how long i can stand? does he ever care how i feel? dunno what to trust lagi... kalau kn d ikutkn perasaan ani, memang sah negative tinkin ku keluar! huhu... dunno kenapa aku belmbut ngan ia... how do i know yg ia bnr2 kaja? or sumting else goin on? STOP IT TIKA!!!

As dizah bru tanya tadi... 'apa teknn perasaan?' maybe im having it ryte now! huhu.. crazyyyy............ hate it wen it comes to GUYS! why guys always make my life miserable? really need to tink dis all over again..

revise pun nada mood! oh wateva.. For U.. u know wat 2 do n wer 2 find me if u feel dat u R LOOSING mE!! m not gonna find u nymore... its ur turn.. m tired.. wateva happen after dis, let it be... jus dun care nymore... 1st chnce u totally blew it, now 2nd chnce we together... what will it be?

sad, miserable, dissapointed or jus simply not understnd U? If im the only 1 who try to understnd U, how about U? U eva try 2 understnd how i feel?

Enuf Tika... go revise! sudh lapas perasaan tu...
*crap*

sMiLe sPEaKs LoUdeR tHaN wOrdS...

2008-10-07T20:36:00.000+08:00

salam.. its been a while nda update dis blog.. huhu.. been bz.. raya plus assignment.. memang nda beraya jua wa... lots to tell but i'll keep it simple ja... dis raya alhamdulilah.. semua ala kadar saja tpi meriah first day raya.. baru tah lagi nie since my dad meninggal kmi bekumpul rah rumah my nini d jerudong.. huhu.. riuh rumah nini tarus..

catching up wit my cuzzies share2 story segala n berungkup saja ngan my cuzins.. smpai2 nini kmi marah.. haha.. sorry nini, ukn selalu setahun sekali ja kmi nyaya kita.. hahaha.. tahun dpan g kmi buat.. huhu..

oh yes, anyway.. i hav first new niece!!! yeyeye... haha.. dpat title 'angah' dah... congratz to my sis n bro in law on their new born first child, NUR FARIDAH ZAKIRAH.. nice name huh.. n yg lawanya sama bdaynya ngan nininya jua.. huhu.. 24th september, my mum punya bday.. so i'm looking 4ward for the grand bday celebration next year.. hehehe...

So far my fren yg dtg beraya 3 org ja baru.. haha.. if kn nunggu open house sorry a.. nada open house ni dis year.. apa nyangku rah baby nonoy, open canteen ja tani ramai2, bayar sendiri!!! hahaha...

masa 2nd day raya, my bestfren, asril dtg ngan kawan kmi c Ak sepol.. tpi ckit g ku tutupi pintu sal membuatkn aku nunggu selama sejam stgh.. haha.. tpi thnk u sal dtg.. lov u 4 eva u knoe dat.. mwahhhzzz!! hehe..

last nyte my new bestfren dtg beraya kerumah jua.. c andy n d geng... haha.. nda bepantang if sama ia ani.. smpai kwn2nya giling2 kepala meliat ulah kmi yg kn beampas becubit saja... huhu.. dats me n my bestfren punya ulah... so jgn ada yg tekajut meliat aku yg usul pendiam ani.. usul saja tue... hahahaha... yg crcknya, durg susun kulit kcng tersenyum keliling meja.. huhu.. fun la jua kwn2 c andy sama gila cam kmi jua.. haha...

yg sandinya after durg andy dtg, gdino dtg ngan kwn2nya.. haiya... its juz dat i'm tired kn acting wa~ sudah tah tym sungkai last tym i hav to act maseh jadi gfnya... rupanya semua kwn2nya lum tau kmi putus... tepksa tah jdi pelakon wanita trbaik dulu... after yg len balik, iatah masa ku menimbak kedia..... huhu... u wit ur prinsip n me wit my prinsip.. nda sama.. mcm north n south.. nda dpat together... nw kenapa tah di suruh lupakan pasal prinsip?? 'telajak perahu dpat d undur.. telajak kata? nda sng kn tarik balik!'

wa~ panjang dah blog ku ani.. hehe.. kes terstuck ni... oh yes... congratz to my dearest fren... baby ucu.... hop u find ur hapiness beside ur darleng... hehe...
pesanan untk hadi kalau tebaca jua tu a.... huhu...: jaga bisai2 c baby ucu ani... jgn sia2kn ia...awas!!

tink dats all for now... esuk lusa g ku merepek d sini... wahwahwahwa...
mwahhhhhhzzzzz!!
aku rindu chipsmore ku wa~~~~
mana ya?? tdo?
chipsmore....... Lap yew!!!

last thing!!!
ehehe.. green light dah dri my mum... up to me kn buat MA.. hehe.. yeye....

-TiK@-
"di manakah penghujungnya kisah ini? akan ada penghujung kah bgi cerita ini?"

Early Morning~

2008-09-12T10:30:00.000+08:00

hmm... pgi2 dah hav to on my laptop.. siapa punya keraja nah? c k****g amedy punya keraja.. huhu.. kn exam pun ngusut pgi2!! cua tah buat cara kn exammmm... haha.. nda cukup tdo ku bnrnya...
yesterday, finally ict presentation.. ok la.. at least lapas dah.. huhu.. c baby ucu ckit g kn pengsannn.. baby ucu... next tym MAKAN! Finish class at about 4pm.. huhu.. hav to rush home sal ada sungkai date g... :s hehe.. oppz!! huhu... sungkai ngan my fren, Jeff.. btah dah promise kn jaln together.. bruth jadi last nyte.. hehe..
kmi sungkai d kfc, GIANT.. haha.. plan kn rah kfc qlap, but takut nda smpat so we jus go rah giant ja.. after dat we went to qlap mall dengan niat d hati kn makn icecream.. but den nda jadi sal nda tecari kdai icecream.. huhu..
den apa nah yg jadi? liat wayang.... muvee LOVE GURU.. huhu... and it was my first time eva liat muvee d qlap mall!! d muvee was okay.. hav a gud laugh jua.. tapi sajukkkkkkk.... lucky me, i bring my jacket.. ngeh ngeh ngeh... after liat muvee, we go to d foodcourt rah gdg properties, lepak till around 10.30 pm..
den balik smula ke giant sal i left my car there!!!! haha.. oh yea! i got my im+ n sms wizard olredy! thank u Jeff~ Jep~ ah ting~.. huhu.. oppz... haha.. balik saja on9 jap den tarus pengsannnnnnnnnnnn................. mana nda, kes nda cukup tdo punya pasal..
yg borengnya... pgi ani pengusut g jadi k*****g!! haha....

kn tdo balik eyh... ngantok.. huhu..
salam
;)

Buzinezzzz... cheh~

2008-09-07T19:30:00.000+08:00

Salam...
liat title dah tau.. sesungguhnya aku sedng ber bz berabis... tapi mahalnya smpat g post blog.. huhu.. blurr sngt2 n kes nda kecukupan tdo.. mana nda tdo kul 5 lalu last nyte.. eyh salah.. ukn nyte.. morning la~ haha.. last nyte having gurlz nyte ngan farah n dizah tarus sleepover at farah's place..
as usual wen 3 bestfrens betamu ani mcm2 yg akn terjadi n yg ter keluar n yg terumpat.. haha.. gurls tings.. arrive at farah's house at almost 10pm sal aher jaln dri rumah kes kengalihan bkas present tgh hrinya..
gossiping wile watching gossip gurl, ngam tah udah tu sesi gossip.. huhu.. farah tdo awal tgl me n dizah.. planning kn bli sumting for sahur at 1 plus am.. but sumting come up.. so postpone la.. huhu.. wats dat sumting? only me, dzah n farah knows... huhu.. sorry dzah.. i know ko takut gelap n sorg.. haha.. ahernya kul 3 lalu me n dzah bli food untk sahur~ round2 d gdg n qlap kes boreng...
wake up tadi around 9.30! hav to go home sal hjh mizah kn dtg ambil paper.. n kn ke2tong g rah rumah baby ucu.. huhu discusion lagieee~ baby nonoi sedg menunggu jua d 2tong.. jadinya degn rasa mata yg berat dan ngantok hamba gagahi jua lah.. esehhhh~ haha..
arrive at baby ucu's place around 11.30 n been trying to search programme for ICT till nyte.. nda pndai dpat.. yatah kesudahannya blogging!!
jap g balik rumah... wa~ sorg2 g driving... huhu...
dah... enuf...
thanx to wan.. :)
huhu..

;)
T-kA

Can't sleep!!

2008-09-02T00:48:00.000+08:00

salam...
jobless sal nda dpat tdo da~ nw listening to old song 'cant smile witout u' huhu.. classic la lagu ani... tpi lawa lyrics nya... thnk you to De La Cruz.. hehe.. anyway for d record balckout 2 times 2day!! cheh~ main2 ba karan a... tau2 saja ku tdo ptg tadi.. bah De La Cruz jan tah majal nah.... haha.. blogging ku dulu... tdi pgi till ptg mendulur diri sendiri sebelum puasa.. sushing ngan baby ucu, baby nonoy, taka, midy n maizi pastu muveing ngan baby ucu n baby nonoy ja liat ceta wall e.. so cute, lawa n SWEET~~
Chipzmore dtg lagie~huh.. so heran y ada lagi urg chipzmore ani... nature kaliii... fun maybe... kn try jadi chipzmore ku jua eyh.. huhu.. saja wana see d response..
for d person who dedicate d song from st 12 'saat terakhir', i'll tink about it.. :)

tak pernah terpikir olehku
tak sedikitpun kubayangkan
kau akan pergi tingalkan ku sendiri

begitu sulit kubayangkan
begitu sakit kurasakan
kau akan pergi tingalkanku sendiri

dibawah batu nisan kini kau tlah sandarkan
kasih sayang kamu …… begitu dalam
sungguh ku tak sanggup ini terjadi
karna ku sangat cinta

* inilah saat terakhirku melihat kamu
jatuh air mataku menangis pilu
hanya mampu ucapkan
selamat jalan kasih

satu jam saja kutelah bisa
cintai kamu,kamu,kamu dihatiku
namun bagiku melupakanmu butuh waktuku seumur hidup

satu jam saja kutelah bisa
sayangi kamu dihatiku
namun bagiku me/lupakanmu butuh waktuku seumur hidup
dinantiku

ooo ooo ooooow wwoo

last=> selamat menyambut bulan ramadhan dan jalanilah ibadah puasa dengan penuh kesabaran..
out~ zZzZzZzZzZ

wa~ blogging..... heh

2008-08-29T13:51:00.000+08:00

ola~ ehe.. first time buat blog setelah sekian lama ku biarkn kosong.. wawawa.. apakan.... anyway, for d first post, dunno wat to say... brain freeze!! dis pix masa me, baby ucu n baby nonoy makan d lamee sal kelaparan lapas class PJ...huhuhu.. searching bahan untk discussion ryte now tapi ngang semcm saja yatah lain plg jadinya.. oh yeah untk baby ucu, A=ASSIGNMENT!!! haha.. we rock our world with ASSIGNMENT!

* for d one yg nda tau siapa baby ucu: BABY UCU=HAMIZAH...

ngeh..negeh..ngeh...

nah apa g kn ku buat ani kn... ceh~ si focus ni punya pasal brain ku terstuck ani! huhu.. dun need sarcastic person in my lyfe especially YOU laa... i tink dats it for now merepek... hahaha

salam

;)