Getting complicated!!

salam..
life wothout complicted tings nda sahkn.. bukn tah namanya life tu kalau nada masalah.. huh.. tings are getting complicated ryte now.. n im jus tired n dunno wat to do actually.. im hoping i cud find the hole for me to escape out of dis mess!! but d mess itself dun wanna let me go! how?

Tings wit Z is getting complicted actually.. cudnt trust him n d gurl.. one of them is a liar but which 1? am i dat blind to see dis? *sigh* Z says all d gurl said is crap n shudnt let my self trust her n involve in dis ting.. canata jua.. mun aku yg kna msg n call.. it makes me sick! Z says he will settle dis tings wit d gurl n family n all n he keeps on say sorry causing all dis mess..

i jus wanna hear da truth.. dats all.. if he really wit dat gurl jus admit it.. afterall we jus frens eventho Z wan us to be special.. i jus cnt handle dis tings while my TP session coming in less than 2 weeks!! well, d last msg from dat gurl says dat she is over Z oredy n hop me n Z happy.. wat? i dun even know what she talks about..

hmm hope Z will settle dis mess.. coz i really dun need dis ting to bothering me while im bz wit my TP..

A? haha.. i dunno wat happen to him.. lately ku nda layan ia g.. jarg dah ku layan ia.. n maybe ia terasa.. wat da h**l... dun expect me to wait beside him until he has d courage to make a decision! cme on la.. u r a GUY.. u shud know wat u want n do something about it.. hmm.. i dun wanna be ur sparepart la.. if u really wants me, u shud do something bout it n dun expect me to wait for u n be a nice gf!

some1 call me up yesterday.. haha.. its been quite a long time ku nda dgr dri ia.. i was bz with my bby sya dat tym wen he call me up..n i was like bngang berabis sal its him! haha.. E.. we talk n talk cath tings up.. he did try being sarcstic lagi.. p im tired wit all of dat.. so aku bck off n start to talk other tings.. its a gud ting to do actually.. ia pun nda memnjngkn.. haha.. ptg tu ku ke 2tong meeting him.. since ku pun in a mess sa ni.. so i meet him n do some talk n watching dvds..

but i hv to get bck early around 4.30 since ia pun kn dgn kn unclenya goin sumwer.. he wantd me to stay plg.. but i refused.. haha.. u want me? come n get me! we did discuss bout wat we miss n do wrong in d past.. haha.. it was a nice talk n hang ot togethr.. 1 thing bother me, he keep asking who is he to me.. n i did ask him back.. wat he want to be.. but he refused to answer.. he jus want me to answer his qn.. n i say he is my fren.. know wat his reaction? owh.. a fren..

im a bit confuse actually.. he say he is not ready to hav a gf ryte now.. but he seems he wants more than a fren from me.. den i know i shud cnfront him n ask him wat he wants.. n he did say he is not ready to hav a gf.. den i say to him, its ok n let us be fren till the tyme come.. den we can discuss dis matter again.. haha.. n there he goes again srcstic n bla bla bla.. n at last he ask me to hav my rest.. huhu.. i win!

its all coming back to me now.. i dunno.. Z, A, E....i jus dun need guys in my lyfe if guys only makes my life misserable!!

Dis is a song from Once, aku mau.. E ask me to listen.. he say its for me.. haha.. funny...


Kau boleh acuhkan diriku
Dan anggap ku tak ada
Tapi takkan merubah perasaanku
Kepadamu

Kuyakin pasti suatu saat
Semua kan terjadi
Kau kan mencintaiku
Dan tak akan pernah melepasku

Aku mau mendampingi dirimu
Aku mau cintai kekuranganmu
Selalu bersedia bahagiakanmu
Apapun terjadi
Kujanjikan aku ada

Kau boleh jauhi diriku
Namun kupercaya
Kau kan mencintaiku
Dan tak akan pernah melepasku

Aku mau mendampingi dirimu
Aku mau cintai kekuranganmu
Selalu bersedia bahagiakanmu
Apapun terjadi
Kujanjikan aku ada

Aku mau mendampingi dirimu
Aku mau cintai kekuranganmu
Aku yang rela terluka
Untuk masa lalu

till next tym..
-t!k@-
mE, mE & oNLy mE!

Confused, scared & Lost~

salam~
lama dah nda update.. lots of tings happen.. wanna keep them to myself actually.. but i cant hold them alone by my self.. huhu.. its hurting n killing me slowly~ uwaaaaaaaaaa.......... wer 2 start? haha.. as expected, wen u lost sum1 u really care, den u realise how stupid u r.. but its too late.. give me lots of sweet msgs, no use lagi... i hav ENUF! wen u hav sum1 who really care for u n loves u, try to appreciate them.. dun eva lost them jus bcoz of small tings..

At last... exam results OUT! huhu.. sesungguhnya menunggu result ani sungguh mendera perasaan n menyakitkn mcm urg kn berank saja........ actually, ku nda expect dis result.. ku expect i got lower than dis.. since tym exam aku bnr2 down! haha... but... alhamdulilah, syukur... my grades makes me smile... i got overall B! huhu... tak disangka2...

Kn TP lagi nie.... hav to prepare tings untk TP soon.. :S gud luck guys.... bath tani bz nie nnti.. huhu.. share2 saja apa yg dpat d share untk TP nnti k.. nda g sabr2 kn teriak2 nie.. bowhhh... haha.. no screaming tika~~ jus use psychology approaches.. wahaha.. iye la tue.. mun nda tahan2 ia jua tu krg beteriak..................

Hopfully our TP session goes well n got good grades.... nda g sabr kn graduate wa bnrnya~~~~

My other lyfe? cudnt talk much bout it ryte now.. complicated.. wen u tot u found sum1 90% perfect for u, tink back... 'Nada urg yg sempurna kecuali yg SATU'.. dlm relationship pun sama.. If we tink dat d relationship is perfect, tink back... there must be sumting wrong within.. wen u found sum1 u r happy with all the tym, tink back dat the hapiness will be taken away from u sooner.. so enjoy d moment while u still can.. coz the truth HURTS....

wat its gonna be?
waiting~
-t!k@-
mE, mE & oNLy mE!

Aku sakit - wali band

dis song dja yang introduce actually.. its a nice one.. a bit sad.. ngam lah ngan my story wit d two guys..

Aku sakit Bila menatap matamu
Sadarku Bahwa engkau bukan milikku
Aku sakit Bila ku mengagumimu
Sadarku Kau tak pernah mengagumiku

Bangunkan Aku dari tidur panjangku
Sadarkan Aku dari mimpi tentangmu
Kusalah Bila ku berharap padamu
Salahku Paksa kau tuk mengagumiku

Kau tak tahu Perasaanku
Dan ku tak mau Kau tahu

Aku sakit Jika kau tahu hatiku
Karena Diriku tak berarti bagimu
Aku sakit Bilakah kau sembuhkan aku
Tak mungkin Tak mungkin sungguh tidak mungkin

Bangunkan Aku dari tidur panjangku
Sadarkan Aku dari mimpi tentangmu
Kusalah Bila ku berharap padamu
Salahku Paksa kau tuk mengagumiku

Kau tak tahu Perasaanku
Dan ku tak mau Kau tahu

Bangunkan Aku dari tidur panjangku
Sadarkan Aku dari mimpi tentangmu
Kusalah Bila ku berharap padamu

Kau tak tahu Perasaanku
Dan ku tak mau Kau tahu
Aku Sakit

eNDiNg & sTarTiNg~~

At empire:

At pntai Seri kenangan:

Salam...
Its d first day of 2009!! huhu.. no more 2008 then... hmm.. so much painful in 2008 which i want to get rid off.. so be it.. wats for the end of 2008? at first me n my gurls, dja & dzah planning out last nyte.. tpi last minute dzah nda jadi.. so tinggal me n dja saja.. having sushi for our dinner with diana n sita d excapade.. d mana lagi kan... haha.. n hang around sana till 10.30pm..

after sushi, me n dja go to jp sal nada kn d tuju.. haha.. so we just go to pntai jerudong n park there waiting for the countdown.. siok jua la... ramai urg lepak sana.. smpai traffic jem awal atu.. n finally its 12!! n its 2009 already!!!!!!! aiya....

funnynya bout last nyte is, nearly all my fren tym sekolah jerudong yg rapat dgn aku mentext aku n tanya aku dmana.. so since aku djerudong, y not gather durg semua.. haha.. at first semua agree.. but den, c cummie last minute ada hal, n c dillah stuck d empire.. so nda jadi la... i just meeting asril n sepol saja n hang out jap.. its fun! mcm dulu2 maseh.. even kmi rista sal sekolah rendah dulu tym main raja n permaisuri!! haha... still fresh in our mind tho...

back home around 2 am n i was so tired.. but den again, mcm nda pndai kn nyuruh aku happy saja, ada kaling majal kurg ajar menipun n msg.. wateva it is, i forgive u n hope u happy! sangal ku dah laki2 mcm ko a! huhu.. at last pndai jua ko minta maaf smapi kn sujud rah ku. "Telajak perahu dpat d undur, telajak kata? sendiri ko sna atu!! tink before u open ur damn mouth!!

Today, andg planning kn picnic ngan dja n dzah along with some of frens n family deja.. but unfortunately, family dja n our frens nda jadi.. so tgal kmi 3 ja.. dzah, dja n me!! huhu.. tym msn, ada tia c andy text.. so y not ku suruh ia dtg.. haha.. actually im d one yg tepksa ambil ia d barik sal kritanya accident! huh! kureng asam... n aku sasat d 2tong kem! :s uwaaaaaa!! well afterall, we had fun togethr.. d 4 of us.. but den, andy tpksa balik awal ckit sal kna work call.. huhu.. anyway we had a gud laugh tho..

we stay at pantai sri kenangn till 3 plus and we head to pntai empire.. membuang panatz n limpang2 atas batu smbil liat sunset.. wat a day... but den.. its fun!!

so tireeedddd.... kn smbung soping n hang out till midnyte actually.. tpi nda jadi sal sorg2 lalah.. so esok bru smbung.. haha..

Till next post...

i miss u.. but.. i cant.. so sad..

-t!k@-