Getting complicated!!

salam..
life wothout complicted tings nda sahkn.. bukn tah namanya life tu kalau nada masalah.. huh.. tings are getting complicated ryte now.. n im jus tired n dunno wat to do actually.. im hoping i cud find the hole for me to escape out of dis mess!! but d mess itself dun wanna let me go! how?

Tings wit Z is getting complicted actually.. cudnt trust him n d gurl.. one of them is a liar but which 1? am i dat blind to see dis? *sigh* Z says all d gurl said is crap n shudnt let my self trust her n involve in dis ting.. canata jua.. mun aku yg kna msg n call.. it makes me sick! Z says he will settle dis tings wit d gurl n family n all n he keeps on say sorry causing all dis mess..

i jus wanna hear da truth.. dats all.. if he really wit dat gurl jus admit it.. afterall we jus frens eventho Z wan us to be special.. i jus cnt handle dis tings while my TP session coming in less than 2 weeks!! well, d last msg from dat gurl says dat she is over Z oredy n hop me n Z happy.. wat? i dun even know what she talks about..

hmm hope Z will settle dis mess.. coz i really dun need dis ting to bothering me while im bz wit my TP..

A? haha.. i dunno wat happen to him.. lately ku nda layan ia g.. jarg dah ku layan ia.. n maybe ia terasa.. wat da h**l... dun expect me to wait beside him until he has d courage to make a decision! cme on la.. u r a GUY.. u shud know wat u want n do something about it.. hmm.. i dun wanna be ur sparepart la.. if u really wants me, u shud do something bout it n dun expect me to wait for u n be a nice gf!

some1 call me up yesterday.. haha.. its been quite a long time ku nda dgr dri ia.. i was bz with my bby sya dat tym wen he call me up..n i was like bngang berabis sal its him! haha.. E.. we talk n talk cath tings up.. he did try being sarcstic lagi.. p im tired wit all of dat.. so aku bck off n start to talk other tings.. its a gud ting to do actually.. ia pun nda memnjngkn.. haha.. ptg tu ku ke 2tong meeting him.. since ku pun in a mess sa ni.. so i meet him n do some talk n watching dvds..

but i hv to get bck early around 4.30 since ia pun kn dgn kn unclenya goin sumwer.. he wantd me to stay plg.. but i refused.. haha.. u want me? come n get me! we did discuss bout wat we miss n do wrong in d past.. haha.. it was a nice talk n hang ot togethr.. 1 thing bother me, he keep asking who is he to me.. n i did ask him back.. wat he want to be.. but he refused to answer.. he jus want me to answer his qn.. n i say he is my fren.. know wat his reaction? owh.. a fren..

im a bit confuse actually.. he say he is not ready to hav a gf ryte now.. but he seems he wants more than a fren from me.. den i know i shud cnfront him n ask him wat he wants.. n he did say he is not ready to hav a gf.. den i say to him, its ok n let us be fren till the tyme come.. den we can discuss dis matter again.. haha.. n there he goes again srcstic n bla bla bla.. n at last he ask me to hav my rest.. huhu.. i win!

its all coming back to me now.. i dunno.. Z, A, E....i jus dun need guys in my lyfe if guys only makes my life misserable!!

Dis is a song from Once, aku mau.. E ask me to listen.. he say its for me.. haha.. funny...


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